the estate of my grandfather

today i made more attempts to ensure that the estate is progressing. nothing much is happening though. no one will talk to me without proper documentation spelling out that i have a legal right to know anything. i don't have the documentation. when i tried to get it i was told by the court that i would have to petition them and ask for the right. they would not tell me what papers i need to file to petition them. they said my attorney would know. they do not care that i do not have an attorney. they said by telling me what papers to file it would constitute legal advice. fuck me. no one ever told me you needed a lawyer to die.

this is fucking ridiculous.

so i thought about my brother. my older one the lawyer, who my mom says reminds her so much of my dad. i guess he reminds me of our dad too. he knows i exist, but doesn't seem to want to be part of my life, and at least superficially, i don't care. but he is a lawyer, and he could be helpful right now.

tomorrow i will go to a legal clinic and present the paperwork i paid 9 dollars for and hope that they can help me fix this mess.

meanwhile, my pod is being delivered tomorrow. i'm a little excited, sorta. moving is a big deal. this is going to be rough. and the car started to make a new noise tonight. not a good noise either. the oil light come on when i push the clutch in. it's a concern.

i have been dealing with an ear infection. both ears this time. ah, fall is here. it'll clear up soon, i hope. that or damage my ear drums irreparably. either way i guess.

i had way to much popcorn chicken for dinner tonight. for some reason i find myself craving popcorn chicken from KFC like mad. couldn't say why. i drove there and got some tonight and then stopped at Circle K and got mike's in a can. i cannot think of a more white trash meal, but it's all i wanted to eat.

tomorrow is class again, and i'm approachinjg done with my notes. at least i'm making progress somewhere.