change

that quote, "the more things change, the more they stay the same" that's the day i had today.

i got a call from jewish family and social services. they are going to help me get some therapy. i'm really happy to hear this. i'll get talk therapy and something called EMDR (i think) which has something to do with eye movement repairing pathways in the brain that have been damaged by trauma. sounds like something i'd be up for for sure. there is a wait list for sure, but at least i know it's coming.

i also went to wingspan today for their legal clinic. i spent an hour with 3 law students how helped me to figure out how to proceed with the estate. i now know what i need to file and when to get things moving in the right direction. they looked everything up on line and explained it to me. they went page by page through this huge package of paperwork i bought from the arizona bar association. i am so thankful. this time next week, i should be making real progress.

class was really weird. i got my first 100% on a quiz, and i hadn't finished reading it, or even doing my notes. next big exam is a week from today, time to study my ass off. i can still ace this class if i try hard enough. we did the osmosis lab, and although i'm greatful we weren't handling raw egg membraned, i was still grossed out by the "mock cells" they were like little slimy penises. not cool.

my car broke down today. i got the oil changed 12 days ago, and there was none in there today. NONE. I called the Jiffy Lube people, who actually came over and told my brother that it was the car. they think i need to replace gaskets or rings or something. i'm fucked.

so, lots of change, but essentially life is still the same. i'm really depressed, but i'm trying to cope. i have a plan.